?!

i'm in my hotel room now watching sponge bob square pants speaking mandarin on taiwan channel.

i cant blog to say what i need to say. sigh.

if u read taiwan news u'd noe wad has happened here in the medical conference. bleh.

i miss u msian delegates.. :(

:S

things to do:

1. pack for taiwan trip *this can wait..
2. study heart stuff
3. email the companies i called but b4 that, writing the letters to email them
4. pbl stuff. even though i'm not attending the 2nd session. but i still need 2 find out those learning issues la.

all supposedly have to be done b4 tmr. meaning by tonight.

conclusion: stressed. short fused. guilty for being short fused.

EVE TEO WHY U TAG ME HAH??

Starting time: 8.48pm
Name: xu vin / ee vin
Sisters: 1 older
Brothers: 1 younger
Shoe Size: 4 or 5?
Height: 152cm (y nvr grow since form 2???)

Where do you live: ktsn - uni hostel
Favourite drinks: barley
Favourite breakfast: umm umm the food doesnt reli matter its the company! :P just plain crackers with half a mug of milo will do i guess.

Have you ever been on a plane?: yes
Swam in the ocean: yes, like max 10m offshore
Fallen asleep at school: in sejarah class yeah. n in sum lectures now.
Broken someone’s heart: dun tink so.
Fell off your chair: yeah, lafing
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: nope

What is your room like: need to hire sum1 to clean it 4 meeeee..... super the messy!
What’s right beside you: the puncher
What is the last thing you ate: ktsn food comprising of all non spicy dishes at the economy rice choices thingy.

Ever had chicken pox: yups
Sore throat: yes, having 1 now.
Stitches: yeah. when i swung on my house's clothes ampaian T thingy like it was a monkey bar n lost my grip n banged my chin on the cement ground.
Broken nose: Nope

Do you believe in love at first sight: lust at 1st sight yes but love nope
Like picnics: if i'm not the 1 planning n if i dun hav things to study heheh

Who was, were the last person you danced with: a whole bunch of 6 other ppl who practised chinese dance w me. alison, huey chieng, kevin, juin yi, yi rong, pau
Last made you smile: qi wen
You last yelled at: kevin for making up the bonaparte la kukaracha thingy

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: yes!
Kissed anyone: No
Get sick: yeah sick now w sorethroat

Talk to an ex: no ex.
Miss someone: i miss ppl when i'm alone
Eat: Yes

Best feeling in the world: hanging out with frens esp after exams
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: just 1
What’s under your bed: iron, shoes, plastic bag storage, headphones
Who do you really hate: really hate ar.. hmm.. maybe i dislike short term but not hate
What time is it now?: 8.58pm

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
umm umm 21 minus 10 is.. 11.

1. took tennis lessons

2. had to practise piano everyday
3. just go to sch n play
4. kiasu wana get 100 for maths n no1 in class
5. playing donkey feather (tag) and hopscotch every recess

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. study stem cell

2. study polycythemia
3. not fall asleep doing those two
4. no more cz think i'd be dead beat by then
5. ZZZZzzzzzzzzz

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. muesli bars
2. cornflakes
3. sunflower seeds (kuaci that dunit to shell 1)
4. gummy sweets
5. yam sticks

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. put some in long term savings account to get more $$
2. donate to church
3. Donate to salvation army
4. keep for my specialist course in UK next time
5. get a cool car and house and beach house

5 of my bad habits:
1. getting annoyed too easily when other ppl are not punctual
2. not caring about birokrasi stuff til ppl nag me to go daftar this kursus or sth
3. complaining
4. lazy to sweep n mop my room floor
5. cannot control going online :D which is y i'm here

5 places I have lived/stayed a night in:
1. Kuching!
2. Bangkok - sch band trip
3. ACS Oldham hall, spore - just 3 months
4. miri for 1 or 2 nights?? - sch band trip
5. penang - my uncle's place on penang hill

5 things I will do after complete what im busy wif:
1. short term, go taiwan
2. read the bible
3. study more
4. so need to study more
5. shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 people I tag:
1. cher linn
2. alison
3. juin yi
4. nicole
5. yi lian

time now is 9.08pm.

of chinese fans

how much of ur race are u?

how do u measure?

isit by a person's

A. mother tongue proficiency
B. mastery of skills
C. day to day routine
D. knowing 1's ancestry cultures / practising them

let me try answer.

A. i can only claim to be able to speak okay mandarin. maybe just enough to ask for directions, create small talk, and survive. but not enough to make mandarin jokes, understand proverbs or give medical advice heheh. of all dialects, mandarin is my best. :S i noe a few hokkien words and even lesser cantonese.

B. i cant dance the chinese dance properly, i dun hav sepet eyes (it's a skill to have sepet eyes!),

but maybe i can still hide in that lion's dance's thingy n make noise..

n i'm pretty sure i can beat those huge drums n clank the gong.. not that hard right.. HAha 4get it actually tink need quite some skill to play those stuff. i dun hav a cheongsam (cant fit in 1 mar. lol) skills required to suck in ur tummy to get the perfect figure in a cheongsam. ahah.


C. still cant figure out what i actually do everyday that's chinese. owh! being kiasu. undeniably oh-so-true heheh...

D. - i only celebrate chinese new year cz its fun. no tea ceremony, (eh wait that's marriage, isit??) , no kneeling with respect to elders, one year i accidentally swept the floor IN FRont of my house IN FROnt of all my neighbours on the 1st day of cny.. whoops.

- but i stil enjoy making dumplings (sumtimes when all 3 of us - my mum, sis n me are at home n feel hardworking. n feel like eating more larr actually.. lol) - cz dumplings sold out thr pretty ex so if make ur own u get tons of them :D,
- tang yuan (the winter fest white and pink flour thingy) and we make it a point to get mooncakes (actually out of gluttony s well) drg mooncake festival. n when we were young (now old redi pai seh) we lighted candles in paper lanterns and carry them round the neighbourhood (terrorising others) dat night. fun times. :P


next question: how much pride for your race can you have without resenting that of another person?

this is debatable. but i shall leave that for minds to ponder. the definition of pride and the causes of racism may not be that related, but i'm sure they sumhow are.

while contemplation ensues... i shall hide behind this majestic artistically crafted chinese fan.

more

places whr i default. n need to alter.

i need to:

1. give allowance to human nature. ppl being late, ppl procrastinating, ppl loving self-praise etc.
esp if i anticipate it.

- if i expect sum1 to be late, i shud allocate half an hour's time extra (just in case). well to my surprise maybe the person might come early.. *gasp!* :P

- if i expect sum1 to procrastinate, i shall just give constant reminders n set deadlines for sth to be done.

bcz in the end i noe i'm not perfect too. whenever i'm late or when i procrastinate, i also hope for sum mercy spared to the sirry gurr.. hehe.


2. take control of my moods.
not to be so easily stressed / worried and not to tell myself i am sleepy bcz i woke up early that morn.
- bcz its unfair to expect my frens to keep tolerating my moods.


3. rmb that diff ppl hav diff priorities, fears and concerns. n i may not understand them fully to be able to judge what they are doing is right or wrong.

- bcz they come from diff backgrounds, their definition of a senior-junior relationship differs from mine and i'm not in their shoes anyway. as long as they dun step into my boundary and get me involved.

- yeah. i dun agree with ragging. or forcing juniors to greet u. bcz in my 1st yr, i rmb that i was shy n damn pai seh n felt so awkward being forced to greet seniors that i dunno. it wasnt that i din respect them. i just felt it was weird. prob a culture in local uni i wasnt used to.

- bcz i believe that respect is sth earned. not sth dictated upon a more inferior party. just bcz a junior greets u doesnt mean he/she reli respects u either. cud prob just b an upfront guise of respect bcz he/she was made to greet seniors or face certain consequences.

- oh well. dat said, diff ppl hv diff opinions. i shud respect other ppl's opinions too.


4. stop having self guilt for spending time getting involved in other activities / going out


-bcz i hav2 remind myself that i'm doing all these for a purpose, for a greater vision for God's kingdom.


5. get a bookshelf!!!

- but dat can wait bcz i'm just too lazy to me-mafan-kan myself to go down to any furniture shop to get myself 1. shall just settle wif putting all my books n files n boxes ard my room.. hehe.


ok! gotta get going on pbl! :P

change?

when u thought things were getting better..

personally by experience when i taught form 4 science to an arts streamed class drg my temporary teaching stint, the students reli didnt hav the command of english that would enable them to study sci n maths effectively in english.

i had to translate every sentence in the text book to malay, then explain the concept in mixed malay n english.

next lesson, when i review the previous class, in english *blank stares*, in malay, *some response*.

n this was in a national sch in the city centre whr medium was english n malay.


however, isit reli necessary to revert back to teaching sci n maths in malay?

the point here should be on catering to every student's level.

- good students want to study those subjects in english.
- average students are okay with english or malay but eventually they can adapt to english.
- students w poor command of english need bilangual books, exam pprs and more english classes from Day 1 of kindergarten / primary sch.


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i have a free day today (PHEW)

so many lectures to catch up on! super super a lot.....

counted 3 lectures, 2 mind maps, 2 slps.

need 2 hav full focus today! n get out of narcolepsy / sleepy mode.

terror

reading on the Taman Sinar Harapan issue,

mental patients caged up, some chained, nude n left to skin n bones bcz their caretakers thought it was too troublesome to feed them. their cells filled with the stench of urine n feces on the floors. no beds. no blanket.
in the women's block, women walking ard nude. clothes dried on dirty floors caked with fungus. children fed with cough syrup to keep them docile n quiet.

1 would hav thought it was a fictional tale from a book.

but no.

it's happening right here in our country.

in a secluded area shied from public.

in a GOVERnment shelter. pretty IRONIC name huh. taman sinar harapan.

*HORROR*

i am just speechless. my mouth is still wide opened.