so how

priorities priorities

its the only thing left when it comes down to making a deep hard decision

to determine once and for all, what IS the objective in the end.

because every objective, is achieved with a different step and decision. and the outcome is different.

we can try to compromise, but there is never a way, never, to please everyone in the end.

n u just hope ppl will understand, and see the way u see it. its the only way.


i realise as more and more critical decision making falls into your hands, the more ppl u will tend /be likely to hurt along the way. and it's inevitable. no1 likes making decisions that will hurt their friends or any1 for that matter. but it afterall, as said, boils down to..

Priorities.


which differ subjectively according to every individual.

thus making it harder to achieve a one way solution.

so in the end. some1's got to make the call. and it's not easy. but it has to be done.

phew....

denial, not reli an option

its that vicious cycle again.

busy / no time to study ---> worried but had an excuse to not study ---> later, free but not studying ---> no excuse to not study ---> extreme guilt ---> forces self to study Or continue living in denial.

i'm currently in the 'continue living in denial' state.

but by realising i'm in denial n feeling extremely despaired n guilt ridden n hopeless for it, rationality will soon pave its way in and make me start studying.

sigh...

i need a stress management kit. like. seriously...

lovely flowers. :)


feel stressed bout going home for cny.

as much as i cant wait to celebrate cny with my loved ones back home again this yr, the notion of being very behind in my studies is a nagging dominating factor coursing forwards from the back of my head.

i'm procrastinating bcz i keep having this feeling that i'll hav time to study during next wk's break, but at the same time i noe that is so not going to happen, and another vicious cycle ensues.

oh nooo.....

1 hard climb

i need to keep the momentum going in this module!

no matter how much i think i cant do it
or how hard it is to understand n rmb those terms
or how only i alone can study for myself n no 1 can help me

need super mega will power!

*if u're a medical student who hasnt entered neuroscience module, pls prepare mentally for hard times.