And... it's still not over! but it will be soon.

So.... the first week of theory papers are over. *Sigh of relief...............

Stress level for the past month was
High--> Mild --> Moderate --> High --> Super high before my 1st paper OSCE --> High after OSCE (cz a lot of tembak-ing involved) --> Super high during Medical essay ppr --> Cooled down a little throughout wed, thursday --> Went up again Fri morning thinking about next week's clinical exam --> Sat for the LAST theory paper --> Stress went down to ZERO (woots!!!) watching The Croods to destress (laughed my head off and even cried it's a super awesome cartoon seriously) --> Stress is back up to High tonight (in anticipation and preparation for clinical exam on tuesday).
conclusion: crazy past 1 month

I thank God for pulling me through the first week. I'm depending on Him to pull me through Tuesday as well.
I thank God for sending ppl to help me along the way.

All the best to all you guys and girls. We're in this together and we will make it <3 p="" xoxo.="">

Reality jolt

4 weeks away to finals...

It does evoke mixed feelings.
When I walk through the corridors of HUKM, i'm thinking, this is gonna be the last few weeks i'll be walking along these paths in at least the next 5 years from now or never again. gonna miss walking through the emergency dept doors, scanning for new admissions, wonderful computerized lab system, shooting bloods to the labs, taking the lift to the 3rd floor library, etc. emo moment. hahah. Spending the last 5 years of my life with a familiar bunch of friends definitely has imprinted stg deep inside me. i'm foreseeing a longer emo post about goodbyes in a few months time from now. heheh.

Pushing away that brick wall of emo-ness, and jolting back to reality, 4 weeks! yes. the number slowly dwindles down to a 3, 2, 1, and i guess before i know it, it's going to be tomorrow. yikes!

to my present batchmates, all the best for our preparation in the weeks to come!

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

I pray for peace, focus and His grace. 

:S

i cant help it but i currently feel like i just bought tickets to enter the gates of doom.

finals in 5 wks. ok dun even talk about finals. 2 formatives in a month's time.

but i jumped into so many commitments that's going 2 rob me of my study time n i dunno how i'm, going 2 just survive the next 1 month.

logic says
a) drop some commitments or
b) believe u will be able to study like crazy if u plan ur time well and persevere.

i cant do either 1.

i cant let go of any commitments. feels terrible. n well yeah, i just cant. hav debate, eamsc paper, eamsc acad work.

but at the same time, i cant think how i'm going 2 get thru evting n stil hav enough time to study. at least properly. it's the 1st time i cant finish a module within the module itself.

*very stressed*very, very, very, very..............

isit like an end-of-1st-semester syndrome or wad. last yr it was royals. tho i survived that, i cant say that was as bad as this.

oh noooooooooooooooooooooo..................................... i need a miracle.

slack. NOt.

u noe i tink God is telling me life is never that laid back n relaxed. at least not for long. ahaha.

list of things to do b4 OSPE:

DO ABSTRACT FOR THE AIDS THINGY by TOMORO. ---->>>> VERY VERY STRESSED RIGHT NOW.

study anat again since i hav forgotten all the muscles n nerves.

study bacteria virus fungi again since i hav also forgotten.

study how fungi n virus esp LOOK LIKE since all fungi look like eruptive volcanos n virus all round n furry looking. -_-

study cancer n evting else in 3rd module.

revise clinical.


i have 11.15am - 12am today for the AIDS thing.

i have 7am-8.30am and 3pm-12am on sunday.

i have the whole day on monday.

ok la.

quite feasible.


stress is on the move.

relief

gosh its just after my 4th module exam n i am baccckkk here! lalallalaalalla :D :D :D

- reading world news vs. msian news is entertaining. lol.
msia: raja petra, najib on saving $$ on by elections, dr. M saying he's not najib's advisor, more
political squabbles not worth rmbring.
world: obama on waterboarding, iran's nuke negotiations, palestin-israel, environment

nuff said. :S

- after exam.

i so so so so so got so so so many many many things i wana doooooo!!!! woohoo!!

shopping
shopping
shopping
go home
debate
aids paper thingy
bake pie :D
go penang!!
go redang!!
meet ev1!!

owh yeah. must revise important 1st yr stuff oso.... hehehehh.....

the inoculation of ktsn's felo room with medic students due to optimal studying environment such as air con, near cafe, can bersiar-siar if tired of studying, got ppl 2 ask ques, got ppl 2 pressure u 2 study. it's OVER. ahhhhhhhhhhh HALLELUJAH!!! has been a week of so much pressure. (looks at pile of notes 2 go, the clock *curses* studyyyyy -cycle repeats 20 times thru the night until 12am)

i thank God so so so much thr were many instances that things i nvr knew but sum1 asked me the night b4 or, told me just the night b4 came out so thank God could answer. i also thank God for the felo room to inoculate! :D no1 noes how i wud have survived the heat thruout exam wk in my room if it werent for that place to escape to. :P

lalala. PPD paper in 30 mins. grin. after ppd, medicine n society. after med n society, PLAAAYYYY nola stil got OSPE. ok. study 4 OSPE. after OSPE, PLAYYYYYYY!!!!! nola stil got khidmat masyarakat on saturday but WHO CARES i'm going 2 redang!!!! hahahahhahah ok.

ppd! :P

finals

finals in few days.

revision class today was good bcz it told me what i din noe. which was a lot. a lot. a lot. immune system. sth the past cny celeb stole from me. reminds self nvr to celeb cny for 5 days in future.

in the meantime i declare myself offline til exams r over.

Stress. is not an understatement.

recollection

I CAN GET ONLINE FROM MY ROOM!!!!!! *runs ard screaming n doing sommersaults* *crash*

now that is the most, n has bn the most, awesome, totally 100% sensible thing the college has ever done in this 1 yr.

aside from repairing the gym which i used to think is the coolest thing that could've happen here but then again i only went thr ONCE so it's not so important anw. lol.

UKM n jaring now gives every UKM student a chance to get FAST, reliable wireless connection from their room. no more cyber-cafe-ing in kah yan's room n feeling pai seh bout knocking on her door everytime i wana go on9!! yay yay yay yay yay...

bt now the thing is, everytime i on my laptop i hav the option 2 go facebooking. n blogging. UH OH.

NVM. for now. grin.

anw, a few current events.

not so current. just photos i nvr got 2 put up.

my mak angkat n adik angkats. :P

blowing that funny bubble thingee again. haha. recollection of primary sch days. we found that blow bubble thingee at a kedai runcit thr. :P

catching a photo with random kids n the mural that Khai Pin drew n is so bangga bout it. hehe.


n next, i mean, before that actually, some shots from faculty dinner. :)

towering. lol.

me n wei wei m roommie :P

another syok sendiri-kiasu-must-take-lots-of-photos-cz-already-paid-so-much-4-this-dinner photo.

from left: bed sheet, curtain, curtain dresses



next on, (oh gosh i go 2 uni 2 play or study??!!!), college dinner themed 'Oriental Nite'. they gave us those fans as souvenirs so must kiasu n take photos with them.


cousemates! :P

me n cher linn (penangite!!) - its a full view photo cz i wana show off the bangles n so that my face looks smaller- cant c pimples n look thinner. lol. just kidding ya dun hate me for making syok sendiri statements.. :S

n i tried uploading summore photos but connection (dunno why) failed me again.

looks like life isnt a bed of roses. haha. my bubble just went Pop. (aspirasiku tentang wifi kolej)

anw. with this. i end by saying.

i declare suspension from facebook til AFTER FINALS!


clinical tmr!! peads, O&G, geriatrics. :P hope it'll be a good fun experience. must not panick.

finals in 2.5 wks.

study!

concurrently.

major pprs over! MWAHAHAAH.

ok. not reli.

there's stil OSPE/OSCE (lab n clinical) on coming tues.

n ppd (a ppr that is equivalent 2 moral in english) tmr.

bt 4 now, its considered, OVER!!

pprs were tough.

bt shall not dwell on dat. heheh.

debate dis wkend. YIKES! meeting brendan! hahah.

i promise 2 post a better post the next round. hahha.

just had coffee for breakfast. a feeble attempt 2 caffeine-supersonic-boost my state of awake-ness these few days. hehe.

finals is in 1.5 wks.

debate comp is on the sat (after my mon-fri pprs) n after dat i fly back (not literally) frm UIA to sit for my OSPE (practical) ppr on tues. my initial goal 2 go comp n try win sth or sth well yeah sth lol, has turned into, a plan 2 go thr, just hav a go n gain experience. i tink God is trying 2 reduce my ego or pressure or... i dunno wad.

anw i have 2 days including today 2 finish up revision for my 4th module. it IS feasible.. but i hav 2 stop thinking bout redundant matters n just study n bilif in myself. wow i'm writing this without any tinge of sarcasm or humour..

i've almost abandoned facebook for now. lol.

n i tot i wudnt be blogging til after finals or mybe til sem 2 starts but i'm here.... hehe..

just need 2 let it out in penned words.

thank God for fellow debaters at least i got crazy comrades going thru the crazy idea w me. or else i surely chickene out redi or wud NVR hav tot of going thru the idea in the 1st place.

i shud just have more trust n faith. in myself. n in God.

study xu vin!!!!!