today mental metabolism spiked.

spiritual gasoline low. i feel this urge to call out to God and just draw back closer to Him bcz i noe i need to and i reli wan to feel His warmth surging thru me n empowering me again. yet it feels like He remains afar and stil beyond personal reach. i long 4 that relationship and closeness to God i use to experience once again.

perhaps i was too busy w my own matters to talk to Him heart to heart. n i casted Him aside putting my studies n other activities which looked more important bcz they were extrinsic (lol) rather than intrinsic, above Him.

n now i find myself in a gutter calling out to Him again. bcz sumhow ppl. only. feel the need for God in their lives whn they're experiencing hardship. n this is how i presume God is calling out to us to come back 2 Him in the midst of our difficulties.


1. my studies. the chunk of topics to cover in 3 wks b4 finals. it looms in front of me like a huge boulder thats going to crush me if i dun run away or climb to safety fast enuf. (short legs summore wad 2 do ahaha)

2. sum unsettled business that involves myself, my conscience, friends. 2 issues to be exact. major n minor. hmm.

3. tots on isit alright 4 me to spend half of my 2 months hols after finals away from home. justifiable to my fam mbrs back home? feel like a prodigal daughter.. lol..

n that. is enuf to spike up mental metabolic activity for 1 day.


cheers to 3rd wk of musculoskeletal module!

doomed onot...

after failing miserably to study last night, dis morn i decided its high time i sit down, draw myself a timetable n start looking at the reality of a horribly jammed packed timetable i'm going 2 hav 2 prepare for finals which is in 3.5 weeks time. yes 3.5 WEEKS!!!! NooOOOoooooOOOooo.......

n whn i did it, i realise yeah, it's reli jammed packed full.

1. even whn i din consider the time i'd need 4 preparing 4 pbl
2. or the seminar this fri
3. or church / care group
4. let alone time to chill.

so in short FORGET ABOUT GOING OUT meaning CANNOT MEET AI HUEY DIS WKEND.

ok.

yeaps.

anw, last wkend, i had a 3 day hari raya visiting holiday in johor.

last wk i said i was going 4 khidmat masyarakat in johor. hehe. note the diff.

reality was:
-the kpg is some kpg bestari.
-my keluarga angkat's house is damn huge - bigger than mine i tink lol.
-her kitchen can fit 50 ppl.
-has 2 living rooms n 2 dining halls.

the community service i did was:
- help ppl take video of their drama presentation on mlm kebudayaan.
- clap enthusiastically after every presentation (wahaha)
- waited for the ghazal group to finish their last song b4 leaving.
- swept the rubbish on the road conveniently under a tree. no half kidding hehe. figure out which half is true. lol.
- painted the walls of a kindergarten.

the fun i had:
- watched 2 movies on the bus 2 johor
- another 2 movies on bus back 2 KL
- every meal cooked by my mak angkat was like hari raya open house meal. (awesome!!)
- din study for 3 days (NoooOOoooOOOooooo)
- hitched hiked on a motorcycle w wei wei.
- ate ate ate mee siput like it was my last day on earth. touch wood.

ok! gtg.

finals in 3.5 wks. UH OH....

spam

let me spam myself.

i've jumped into Musculoskeletal module this week.

Dr. Srijit Das is SUPER GOOD!!!!!! gosh super super super good!!! ever since we had the doctor explaining Embroyology using the lecture hall n dental students lol this is such a refreshing lecture. he talks the speed of bullet train but he IS EXTREMELY GOOD yayy! i hope more lectures from him.

wil be in Muar this weekend for khidmat masyarakat. :P

n while thr are seriously so so so many things 2 do, like my PBL 4 tmr, n medicine n society seminar presentation on fri, i am procrasninating again! i'm going 2 finish the MS presentation at 1am on fri dan PBL at 12 midnite tonite. groans..

Msian Debate Open is dis wkend! bt i hav 2 miss it bcz of khidmat masy. brendan's debate troop apparently going 2 fly in from sabah for it. gosh. semangat! :P

times up!

WORK

work work work work work work work

i pumped ballooons from 8.30am-3pm yeaterday.

i did pbl in 3 hours last night.

i was forced to attend Yang DiP Ag**g official closing ceremony dat had a drama no1 understood n a band which was okkk... JUST 2 make sure i dun kena dimerit n lose all the merits i had 2 collect 2 stay in college next yr.

i have 13 more lectures to cover b4 the formative in 2 weeks time.

i hav zt- hubungan etnik presentation material 2 look for. it's actually due today (Sorry Wen!!!!).

i hav 2 attend a dinner on fri night bcz i paid rm55 for it n hence hav the obligation to my economic crunched self (nola i stingy laaa) to go or feel like a rotten anti social loser.

i hav not uploaded my assignment but its ok its due on fri anw grin.

i hav not compiled my HM- co curricular class assignment.

i hav debate training tonight.

i hav class in 5 mins.

but life is good. :)

bcz, i love balloons, i love debating, n i love being a medical student in a local uni whr fees do not credit crunch my parents. hehehhe...

i missed praise n worship / singspiration during church last sat! hrmmm...

joy 2 the coming wk!

worm work work work work work work work.