today mental metabolism spiked.

spiritual gasoline low. i feel this urge to call out to God and just draw back closer to Him bcz i noe i need to and i reli wan to feel His warmth surging thru me n empowering me again. yet it feels like He remains afar and stil beyond personal reach. i long 4 that relationship and closeness to God i use to experience once again.

perhaps i was too busy w my own matters to talk to Him heart to heart. n i casted Him aside putting my studies n other activities which looked more important bcz they were extrinsic (lol) rather than intrinsic, above Him.

n now i find myself in a gutter calling out to Him again. bcz sumhow ppl. only. feel the need for God in their lives whn they're experiencing hardship. n this is how i presume God is calling out to us to come back 2 Him in the midst of our difficulties.


1. my studies. the chunk of topics to cover in 3 wks b4 finals. it looms in front of me like a huge boulder thats going to crush me if i dun run away or climb to safety fast enuf. (short legs summore wad 2 do ahaha)

2. sum unsettled business that involves myself, my conscience, friends. 2 issues to be exact. major n minor. hmm.

3. tots on isit alright 4 me to spend half of my 2 months hols after finals away from home. justifiable to my fam mbrs back home? feel like a prodigal daughter.. lol..

n that. is enuf to spike up mental metabolic activity for 1 day.


cheers to 3rd wk of musculoskeletal module!