Lamentation

The place you love the most is always the place you call home.
Kuching will always be home to me. The familiarity makes it the ultimate comfort zone. it feels good to tell ppl where i'm from and take in the cute misconceptions ppl have about east msia. on a bigger scale, it's malaysia i will always call home. the people i will always love the most among any of the nations in the world. However, as a young undergraduate who's bound to leave student life and join the huge throng of labourers in the workforce soon, i have my concerns. where is our country heading to? it's true that the way of management of every country has it's pros and cons. financial policies, priorities. we're called to serve our people. deep inside, i know that i will love treating any msian uncle, aunty, teen, child more than anyone else, bcz i feel that i can identify with them and that there is a need in this country for ppl to serve. BUT. with the onslaught of drs in training hospitals ard, current financial planning of the country, the latest doomed project in kelantan, it makes me wonder what the future holds in this country. well to be honest it's more of the failed project in kelantan that i just read about this morning that gave me this sense of hopelessness. why can't people, developers, etc. have conscience. why is there corruption. why do ppl misuse power and rob the country. there're tons of ppl out there who're poor, underpriviledged, unable to afford themselves education, whose lives are confined to meagre states of living. most of you would shake ur heads and think, yeah well it's nothing new. corruption. ppl who would squander money for themselves and leave the rest to rot. they shud be banished. well lol my lecturer would say they shud be shot, i kinda feel that way too, but i suppose it sounds pretty scary. you wish this didn't have to happen in your country. i wish there was absolute equality. but it's a thought of an idealist. equality can never exist. what is left is hope. the ultimate value of life in the end is afterall, to run the race and live for His glory. I love Malaysia. you know that feeling when you wana prove urself to be better than any individual from a neighbouring country lol. we all have that kiasu feeling. ahaha. I just wish the spark of hope and light here can brighten up soon, if not to not be extinguished. many of us feel the flame's dying. without transparency, questions pop up. the truth is evident, some know more, some less. but i think no matter how much we lament, deep down this is still our home. and we want the best for it.

thaaaaat said, still, looking forward to the coming week. :) gonna fly back kuching saturday. cny cny the reason to kick off those shoes and celebrate :D