Before the 1st half ends.

it's the last day of O&G posting today. and i cant believe that wow time flew and i've gone through 2 postings already.

as i look back, i truly thank God for blessing me with smooth sailing postings and granting me what was the best to mold me / shape me in my education in the beginning of this clinical year.

i thank God for

1. having surgery as my 1st posting.

it was a stepping stone, a cushion where i could take time to adjust myself to clinical year lifestyle and schedules. although it was only in week 4 that i sort of started to get the hang of it, i had 4 more weeks to catch up on things.

balancing between the 101 different advice from seniors and friends, in the midst of confusion between 'u should stay in ur room the first few weeks and study 1st b4 going to the wards' and 'u should go to the wards everyday and learn from the patients. they are ur books.' and 'just clerk one case a day then go back study' etc.. it was pretty confusing trying to balance out between everything. whn in surgery u have clinics, wards, OT, teaching. u can do anything u want, anytime, at ur own expense.

clinical years throws u an 8 week syllabus at the beginning of ur posting, and its up to you how u wana finish studying / mastering all the 'must knows' etc by the end of it. gone are the days of scheduled day to day classes and lectures and syllabus. it's totally flexible and entirely up to you how you wana study.

you get reli lost in the beginning bcz u're overwhelmed by the 8 week workload thats thrown to you in the beginning. but as time passes and u slowly cover the syllabus bit by bit, the pressure wears off.

surgery posting was a platform for me to build up my confidence.

i thank God for

2. very nice supervisors.

Ms. Farrah and Mr. Azlan both gave teachings once a week throughout the posting, and were very approachable and friendly. it spared me brain cells needed to overcome intimidation and gave me more confidence.

3. O&G posting

being my 2nd posting gave me a 1 week's holiday in the middle of the posting. whr i could use the holidays to be oncall and finish up the deliveries i needed to conduct. phew no more oncalls after hari raya hols.

4. a great supervisor

whom i feared from week 1 and actually still to a certain extent until now but lesser hehe. Dr. Rahana was strict and i was really fearful of uttering silly things or asking silly questions or presenting horribly in front of her. and the fear made me study and study and study and gave me insomnia and drove me to maximum will to study even when my eyes wanted to shut themselves after 7pm at night. i would force my eyes to stay open and my brain to accept information and retire to bed thinking what i have not covered. n jump out of bed at 6am before my alarm even rang to run to ward to cover beds everyday for her ward rounds.

the fear was good. it pushed me to work hard.

waking up at 6am was good. it gives me an early head off start of the day.

ward rounds everyday was good. i had more chances to present cases and brush up my presentation skills.

4. for manageable cases to present.

case presentation was a bit rough here and there but still alright.

there was a time that the patient in the bed i was not covering , but i covered for fun bcz i was looking for a Placenta Previa case to present, suddenly appeared in the bed i was suppose to cover the next morning. so i didnt have to prepare anything much that morning, and just had a brief look at her updates. wow talk about miracles.

5. for my short case

under Prof Hatta. who was nice and very pleasant and helpful and that took away my nervousness.

6. for great groupmates.

both in surgery and O&G. i enjoyed the teamwork and in sharing the anxiety and fun together. i am grateful for the opportunity to get to noe my coursemates a lot better by being in the same group as them in these postings.

7. how could i forget? for finally understanding a childbirth's / labour pain.

i salute all mothers in this world. just looking at how much they suffer, the face of agony and nearly giving up when having contraction pain for 8 hours before delivering the baby is enough to make any teenager abstain from premarital sex. i tink? lol. the but yeah, it looks reli reli painful...! gosh, thank you mum..!

8. very helpful 5th year seniors

who are reli very competent and i reli look up to them. the way they carry themselves, the knowledge they have and the time that they're willing to spend to give out pointers and teach lost juniors.

9. very helpful coursemates

from the same posting who have helped me so much in sharing knowledge, opportunities, going through it together. for close friends in a different posting who gave me so much advice in going through the posting they have been through. wouldnt have made it without them.

thank God for bringing me through the first part of yr 3.

it's study week now and exams are in 1 week's time.

happy studying everyone! :)

after exams:

Bali trip! EAMSC paper! then Tanjung Karang..!