i am breaking my own declaration 2 go offline til finals r over.
it's not a good thing. but nvm.
it's bn a while since sth inside me stirred n longed for God.
in last sunday's service, i was calling out 2 God 2 fill me up once again 2 see Him at work and present in my life. i felt the Holy Spirit in me arouse drg P&W but it felt like it just felt me the moment i stepped out of church. nothing changed.
til today. 40 mins ago.
i read Jacintha's blog entry about the small things in life that is filled with God's presence: the good morning breeze, the refreshing can of coffee, the little jokes and banter i share w my roommate, the cafe lady who said terima kasih, the comfortable bus ride to faculty, the everything in life that you could be thankful for.
and i felt His presence filling up my life again. i want to live this life for Him, for the purpose He called me fwd, for the gifts He blessed me with, for His love that comes with peace and joy.
that nothing else surpasses.
i was waiting for a personal encounter with Him. but then i realise, His presence is already all ard me. it was for me to awaken. and see Him right there beside, in front, behind, above, inside me.
:) do you wish to experience Him in your life?
2 comments:
You just realized that His presence is EVERYWHERE?? hmmm... good thing the cataracts were removed.
But realizing this isn't everything to it. I've always felt His presence in everything that goes around and I know that I believe in Him till eternity and beyond death, but I can't seem to commit to Him. My will is weak and my spirit drying.
A personal encounter with Him?? hmm... that'll be nice, so long as I'm still alive during the encounter. :D But then again, wouldn't I just brush it of as a hallucination? My mind generating false reality due to neurological problems? Or that I'm loosing my mind? hehe...
Would I or would I not want a personal encounter with the Almighty? Dunno. I'll leave it to Him to decide if He'll have a face to face with me. Till them , through the priest, ppl and that nice gentle spring breeze is good enough. A reasurerance that I am not abandoned. A reminder that my faith is not wrong.
Good luck in your finals!!
wow, this is a good sharing, dear :) that God is everywhere *sniff the air and it smells like Milo!*
thanks!
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