N the 1st module ended.
N we swung straight into the 2nd module.
i find myself:
- Being extremely dismissive n trying not 2 face the reality of doom and the consequences that will follow n has followed if i continue on lk dis.
- n whn i say 'like dis', it means me not studying, not catching up w lectures blah.
- i am behind like 6 lectures, 1 self learning package, 1 MES / lab and thr will be more to come.
- i am attending lectures redundantly bcz i am so so blur and at the end of the lecture today the only thing i grasped was Tc cells r assisted by Th1 and Th2 cells.
truth 2 be said i hav lots of free time, free afterns which i nvr seem 2 spending wisely.
OH NO.
at least in the prev module i was on par in the end keeping up w lectures cz there were so many breaks 2 catch up. n at least in the beginning i was stil on time w the lectures.
is this wad u call 'taking things for granted' or 'ignorance' or procastination or or ok no idea.
i just noe i hav 2 get myself OUT of this doomsday scenario b4 i reli am doomed at the end of this module.
i nid 2 start loving lecture notes while i hav no books 2 refer to in this module! i hardly looked at my lecture notes in the 1st. yargh.
Study study......
1 comment:
CNY here is like any other boring, damn, bloody celebration we have!!! SAME THING for Hari Raya, Deepavali, CNY, Christmas... all we do is come, watch performances, eat, mingle a little then leave. This is my 3rd CNY here and honestly speaking, I don't want to go to another one!!! I wanna GO HOME!!!
As for me having a few more years here... try 4 more long, bloody, suffering, BP-raising, stress-loading years (OMG!!!) I seriously will, and you can bet my smart ass on it that I WILL GO BACK HOME. Why?
1. cuz I completely, and utterly hate Russia and do not plan to be here any longer than I ABSOLUTELY, POSSITIVELY have to.
2. I'm learning in English medium and not in Russian medium. So unless I want to RE-learn everything I've (hopefully) already learned in Russian.... do I need go on? I'd rather KILL myself then repeat med school espsecially IN RUSSIAN LANGUAGE!!!!
3. If I stay here any longer than I have to, with the food as it is, I will be as thin as Michi. Did I mention the food is TASTELESS? AND how much I dislike cooking EVERYDAY?? At least back home eating out is both cheapER and nicER.
Haah... clear enough? It'll work better if you heard it all in my owh so very sarcastic tone and me rolling my eyes, but I'm sure you know me so well that you've probably imagined it all while reading... :D
The only thing that would probably (tho it might still end up with me going home) keep me here, is that if I get married to a Russian, which by the way ain't happening unless I actually work my ass off to pull my Russian to a much, MUCH higher level than it currently is right now. Which is not likely, as I definitely HATE the language. And altho they say that there's no other way to learn a new language than through a relationship, probably ain't gonna work!!! And even if somehow, by God's unexplainable, weird cosmic workings, I do get married to a Russian, I am dragging my russian-husbands ass to M'sia with me. It'll be a condition before he even sprout out the words 'Will you marry me' or any other words to its equavalent.
Of course if M'sia suddenly ends up a warring zone for I-don't-know what reasons, then maybe, MAYBE I'll stay back in Russian... but even then, I think I'd defect to another country OTHER than Russia. Savvey?
Besides, I do plan to work in Malaysia. And if I don't happen to like it, there's always Singapore and the whole globe!!! :D
Ok... I should put this much enthusiasm and literature to my own blog instead of my comments about yours. But hey, even YOU don't really read my blog... so what the hell. Erm... seem to be forgetting something
Owh yea. I know you already know this but lectures are important especially when you don't have books to refer too. I have books to refer to, all in English (GOOD English as publishers are from the US) but I still HAVE to rely on my lecture notes. Cuz unless I sumhow manage to 'eat' the whole reference book for every single subject I'm taking, I need my lecture notes as my guide. So seriously, catch up with your lectures. You'll just get blurrer and blurrer in lectures. AND any thing you've left behind (classes, etc) will eventually and most definitely (mark my words) CATCH UP WITH YOU!!! And it'll do so at the most inconvenient times!!! So, hurry up and catch up with what you've left off. As the russian say, those with a long tail will suffer. 'Long tail' here refers to unfinished work... LIKE YOU'RE HAVING NOW!!!
You're a smart woman, midget. Whatever you're doing during those free afternoons of yours better be put on hold till you've finish cutting that tail of yours off. Trust me on this. I know it. I've went through it. And I absolutly HATE it. Mine included copying every single lecture (two semesters worth) I had on a particular subject (which I never attended, not even one lecture)days before my exam. And replacing classes I've missed days before my exams. NOT FUN!!!!
Other than that, have fun during CNY. No pressure :D *evil grin*
p/s: my last paper is on the 23/1... so I'm not free yet...
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