concurrently.

major pprs over! MWAHAHAAH.

ok. not reli.

there's stil OSPE/OSCE (lab n clinical) on coming tues.

n ppd (a ppr that is equivalent 2 moral in english) tmr.

bt 4 now, its considered, OVER!!

pprs were tough.

bt shall not dwell on dat. heheh.

debate dis wkend. YIKES! meeting brendan! hahah.

i promise 2 post a better post the next round. hahha.

JUst, a little thought

formative was over this morning, hence the blogging. :P

expectations

societal stigma

societal acceptance

religion and well being

holidays :P

haha i'm sign posting! lol.

on how much to expect or to ask of myself. i've bn thru this question so many times since i set my foot here. n i found out eventually many others shared the same dilemma. but again n again God reminded me of how He provided for me in the times i nvr expected 2 succeed, or when He gave me exactly what i asked for, even when i did not come seeking for Him, when i left Him out of the picture n took things in my own hands, well yeah suffered certain consequences, but prevailed in the end. Praise the Lord! the blessings to count in life! the little things that He provided for me thru friends who cared and shared my joy and pain. (i am being very vague here about what blessings and what joy and pain and what friends cz i guess there're just too many to list n i'm shy.. lolz) so i guess its ok 2 contemplate but in the end, just go with the flow, have faith and trust that He will provide. :)

on societal stigma. priorities in life. sumhow Asian society measures excellence through a barrage of As, certs, high level academic performance, which is well yeah true, it does measure ur intelligence worth, but to what extent? n is our life worth a mere measurement of intellectual prowess. n when we seek to strive for excellence which counts more. priorities, priorities. this is whr diff individuals set out for diff things in life. some seek for spiritual development, some for acad excellence and the ambitious for ALL.. and that, is whr some ppl go bonkers cz they cant manage, or succeed and gain eternal satisfaction and sailormoon power!! ok sori that was random lol. i mean, and triumph in the end bcz they were courageous enough to challenge status quo (right term? ok nvm who cares) stick on to what they set out for, and triumph :P

societal acceptance. just a brief thought of the cascade effect of peer pressure. nope nothing to do w debate. peer pressure is afterall, in my own understanding, sth believed in or practised by a majority of ur peers to be able to cast on a significant influence on u to lead u or get u integrated into their set of beliefs and practices s well. it has pros and cons as we all know so perfectly well. but well not succumbing to peer pressure sure isnt easy. cz we Asians love to follow the crowd.. follow the crowd.. go pasar malam bak-kua.. grins.

on religion. religion was, and shud be, what lay down my set of values n principles in life as well as being a propagation for me towards achieving life fulfilment. i stil need spiritual development.. to be honest.

holidays! on a much much lighter note here, the thought of home, my family, the warmth of cny visiting and cafe chit chatting fills the cerebral cortex on n off. hehe. well cant help it cz nearly every1's exams seem to be ending or has ended... n the next time i'll be back is cny.

for the moment in chronology, study break, exams, debate, shopping, start of new sem! (shamelessly include shopping b4 start of new sem lolz)
with bits n pieces of laughter, fun, stress, more laughter and contemplations in between. :P

God bless you all. :D

just had coffee for breakfast. a feeble attempt 2 caffeine-supersonic-boost my state of awake-ness these few days. hehe.

finals is in 1.5 wks.

debate comp is on the sat (after my mon-fri pprs) n after dat i fly back (not literally) frm UIA to sit for my OSPE (practical) ppr on tues. my initial goal 2 go comp n try win sth or sth well yeah sth lol, has turned into, a plan 2 go thr, just hav a go n gain experience. i tink God is trying 2 reduce my ego or pressure or... i dunno wad.

anw i have 2 days including today 2 finish up revision for my 4th module. it IS feasible.. but i hav 2 stop thinking bout redundant matters n just study n bilif in myself. wow i'm writing this without any tinge of sarcasm or humour..

i've almost abandoned facebook for now. lol.

n i tot i wudnt be blogging til after finals or mybe til sem 2 starts but i'm here.... hehe..

just need 2 let it out in penned words.

thank God for fellow debaters at least i got crazy comrades going thru the crazy idea w me. or else i surely chickene out redi or wud NVR hav tot of going thru the idea in the 1st place.

i shud just have more trust n faith. in myself. n in God.

study xu vin!!!!!

randoms

ok yeah yeah random pics frm English Speaking zone OPENING ceremony which ironically had prize giving ceremony for comps that took place 2 months ago. no wonder no apex.


this is the best pic ever we totally ignore the VIP (the vice chancellor - purposely type it w/o capital letters muahahahhaha nola actually my tatabahasa teruk 1 i dunno how 2 use capItal letterS properly) in this case i prefer to just CapItalISe/ Block only alphabetS that caN be fouNd IN my name. n i nvr had braces b4 ok.

arm joint athristis. - curse of the VC. (okay okay i'll capitalise i'm sorryyyyy!!!!) the grins are due to facial muscle spasm.

hot camera man!!

and POOF Peeg appears. :P

n we all live happily ever after... lol NOLA debate camp at KTHO in UKM.
frm left: KTSN Jap-Brit diva, anorexic orange headed boy, me (i'm not short its just that anorexics possess internal strength that is aggravated by pink shirts), catherine, chinese guy who did plastic surgery to earn himself M1 title.
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this posts serves no purpose except to make up 4 lack of photos on my blog.

Freedom

Sometimes we wonder how much freedom is enough.

How much limitation to freedom is good for us.

N sometimes we only see the positive outcome of freedom limitation after complaining about it then watching others suffer the consequences of the lack of this imitation. It can be argued on so many levels. But I shall talk bout myself 2day… wahahaha.. ok no sorry 2 disappoint u but I refuse 2 let ppl think I'm self centred. Haha.

1. The limited access to Internet I have from my room
   
2. Conformation to wearing collared shirt/tshirt and covered up shoes to faculty.
   
3. Conformation to wearing long pants outside the hostel block within college grounds.
   
4. Compulsory attendance in subject classes I don't like/ think is pointless.
   
5. Freedom to manage my own studies according to my own time outside class hours.
   
6. Freedom to choose my own groupmates-in certain groupworks.
   

   
   

   1. Limited Internet access
      

      :( - when I'm free I cant lepak on the net, chat on msn from my room, search 4 pbl stuff or any other relevant info from the hostel meaning I hav 2 spend an aftern in fac 2 go online 4 this purpose.
      

      :) - on the bright side, it means, whn formative or exams r near, there're less distractions ard in my room. However, I think this lack of freedom has more –ve effects cz I shud b given the liberty to manage my own time n priorities despite distractions ard. I mean, I'm 20 n I shud be able 2 avoid going on9 24-7 even there's internet connection here.. (yeah I'm stil too stingy to get myself broadband mar…)
      

      
      

   2. Code of Attire
      

      :( - lack of freedom of expression. Covered up shoes r annoying and the 1s that come w heels r seldom comfortable n blister inducing. Its either nice bt painful or ugly bt comfortable.
      

      :)- well I guess uni is a profesional learning institute so its only appropriate that its students dress smartly.
      

      
      

   3. Another code of attire
      

      :( - its super super annoying n inconvenient 2 hav 2 change into long pants EVERY time I wan 2 go 2 the café, get sth from sum1 from another block (even if its 5 meters away). N I stil dislike wearing track pants ard. Also, skirts have 2 cover the knee. Shorts (even knee length 1s) not allowed either.
      

      :) - I guess respect of cultures is a must esp whn u're a minority. N its 2 avoid ppl wearing hot pants / micro mini skirts ard. But then again, arent we in uni? Wad about the freedom of expression n own choice to disregard immorality. I mean, just bcz we wear shorts doesn't mean every guy is going 2 go gaga n every1's going 2 start having sex w each other etc. even if level of promisciousity increases, isnt that part n parcel of finding 1s other half. Lol. After all, God created man n women n these two shall unite thru matrimony n blah. Its not like putting restrictions on exposure of certain body parts such as the CALF is going 2 stop ppl from creating lustful images of others if they reli wan 2 do so. Lol. I c redundancy… hostels r already unisex anw. owh wait. I'm suppose 2 talk bout the positive outlook of this restriction here n look whr I am now. Lol. Since I'm on this, also, whr got ppl wear track pants 2 play netball or tennis or squash etc in the Olympics. N since guys can wear shorts for sports here, why not girls. its an implication that girls hav the ability 2 exercise more self control whn they c a guy's CALF than vice versa. Guys beg 2 differ??
      

      
      

      -today (sat) qian told me there are rape cases whr the guys block is situated too near girls block. Okay….
      

      
      

   4. Classes
      

      :( - I better not mention the name of subject here or risk being expelled. Lol. If the syllabus or content was relevant to my field of study, or if the class reli had substance, I'm sure every1 wud attend whether or not it was compulsory. Shudnt we be given the choice to disregard things we deem as unimportant. n to instead use the time 2 pursue an area of interest or perhaps, that has more relevance to the main core subjects.
      

      :) - rules r rules we're forced 2 conform to rules (whether unreasonable or unfair) in any level of society, in the workforce etc. so might s well force myself to conform to rules in UNI.. So dat I can get used 2 more of them later whn I start work. Lolz.
      

      
      

   5. Time management.
      

      In this area it is sth I stil need 2 work on. I hav bn slacking wayyyy too much (n even hav the time 2 blog on this lol). The amount of extra reading, references, looking up 4 materials etc that I do subsequently decreases I tink. This is bad.
      

      
      

   6. Groupwork
      

      :( - Groupmates that u get, u might not get along w that well, or u nvr noe if ur group is productive n cooperative, anw u get the picture.
      

      :) - When u dun get 2 choose, u get 2 noe more ppl, mix n mingle ard more whn u work w ppl u dunno or didn't reli noe in the 1^st place. A pleasant surprise if ur grpmates happen 2 be reli nice, cooperative, effective workers and sociable ppl.
      

      
      

Debate camp in Bangi tmr morn til mon evening.. anticipating hard work. :S but hope it'll be FUN besides educational. Heheh.

Had Kajang satay courtesy to ppl who went 2 Bangi! Thank you! :P – enuf satays for the time being. Haha.

Did my clinical at HUKM on thurs! – fun :P I got a patient w joint pain due to hole in the heart. V good exposure. Also, HUKM wards r super nice… spacious n bright.

Bought myself a squash racket. Haha. Bye bye squennish hello squash! Keeps raining in the evening cant play tennis.. :(

Formative over this morn. Stil ok I guess. Hehhe.

Need 2 sleep now. :P

after thoughts

i thought i'd hav ntg 2 blog about. haha.

n then.

- wye li left!! (MJ n Peeg crashed KT n gave me a shock lol!)

- i played squash with a tennis racquet with 1) a tennis ball fr Kevin 2) a squash ball fr Qian in a battered squash court. (the wood surface looked like an aftermath of mutiny between a billion termites n another billion cockroaches) the squash ball travelled 410 degrees all across the already-battered-court. vertical, horizontal, criss cross, hitting wood surface, the ventilation fan, the lights, the players and.... of course, the racquet. heheh. fun :D

- i was on facebook b4 ppd class ysterday afternn whn joon yi pinged me saying 'oi finals in 1 months time u still online??' then i realised, OOOOOHHH MAAANNNNNN.... if it was 1 month b4 sch exams, i'd be nerding. if it was 1 month b4 stpm i'd be nerding like mad. n this, this is 1 month b4 uni 1st sem finals!!! uh oh.

- i DO hav pics bt uploading them using the IT lab comp isnt such a good idea.. hehe. (i was here since 2 hours ago clicking the mouse n watching graphs appear. TWO hours of graphs is enuf 2 get me here. ok. better get back..

Real Hols

OKay.....

i hereby admit that i have failed to fulfill my oath. heheh....

but at least, At LEast i only failed by 1 day (a mere 10 hours). ok nvm it doesnt matter, it just shows that the overpowering lure of the seductive internet was too strong 4 me 2 resist. n its holidays mar... lol.

not dat i studied much over the ban-myself-from-internet period anw.. hahahhahaha....

bday celeb w my family :)
went to Italiano's.
me n my sis
me n my bro

me, my dad, my mum

this pic is blur cz my bro studied too hard for exam (f4 exam only la cheh) n was suffering frm spasmic disorder. therefore i forgive him. or maybe he did it on purpose so dat the mount Vesuvius-es on my face wont be sn in blur photos. lol.

great family moment! :P

-celebrated w sing jie in B3-- (room num not stated to protect its occupants fr KT guard interrogation n living on rm4.50 meals for a week lol. actually sorry qi wen n sze ying i 4got ur room num. grins..)- result of aftershock frm the surprise celeb they gave me LOL.....

me n sing jie

look rrrreeeeeal close n u'll see a phoenix emerging from the flames. (only smart ppl can see so u beta look hard)

phoenix meat (sze ying intoxicated cz she nvr read harry potter)

qw: no way man i'm so not going 2 admit i'm dumb there was seriously NO phoenix OKAy.... those idiots...

4get bout qw we noe we're smart whn we look at ourselves. (wei wei: world peace!!)

HAHAHAHhahhahahahaah idiots... pls lah the world is suffering from oil n food crisis n u're arguing bout Harry Potter??!!?

(forgive the lame-ness n lack of chronology)

- had another nitrous oxide attack at McD.

THW use zero carbon debt candles for bdays at Kevin's expense.
(*Kevin quits medical sch n start drawing candles 24-7. in 365 days time, he shall emerge as Forbes Top 2.47 World's Richest Diva. muahahhahahahah) n he shall be invited to every one of UKM's annual Minggu Mesra Pelajar n the VC's bday parties.

Cher Linn i finished reading Jeffrey Archer. :P

Met Crys, Nic, Jacq, Edm, Rosh, Aunty Jo n Mei Yin (haha!), Pauline, Anas, Lo, Lex, Mary (n bumped into Jasmine, Fui Tze, Lip Leong, n Hwang's brother). met Laine, Jun Fook, summore BL ppl hehe, Hwang, a Teresian senior i havent sn for 3 yrs, Christina Injan (!!) at the airport that day.
Aunty Jo our STPM bio teacher :P

mocha latte frm Bing's. lesson learnt: caffeinated drinks activate hunger pangs whn taken in the middle of the night by weirdos lk me. it had me eating cracker's at Cry's place at 1am. (crys i am doing u a favour wahahhaha) *realises that Crys has bcum thinner.. (HAHA crys went back 2 penang on thurs nite)

Swak's or rather, Kuching's Teh-Si-Peng (3 layer tea) but in this case its 4 layered.
my go-to-airport buddy, Li Weng frm Sarikei. :) (my head was suffering frm 50 degree syndrome that day)

n i found out frm Bren that chicken rice in Sabah costs RM6. Sabah no chickens??!!? (juin yi can quit medical sch n sell chicken rice)

ok. i shud reli start looking 4 info on War Crime now....

2day's already Fri! how can........??!!?? i dun mind having another week of Hari Raya... hehe.